1st tri just sucks

I know A and I have said that we want 2 kids, but I really don't know how I'm going to go through all this again. I guess it was silly of me to think that being pregnant could be enjoyable in the beginning. Don't get me wrong - I'm glad that I'm knocked up, but I am so tired of not having any control over my body!

Yesterday I threw up again. I had just made myself a cup of coconut tea and taken a bite of cinnamon bread. I barely made it to the kitchen garbage can. And there were people in the house working on our bathroom so I was embarrassed to say the least. Oreo stole my piece of bread while I was in the kitchen. Not that I would have finished it anyway. Thankfully I noticed rather quickly that I had somehow turned the gas on the stove on. That would have been bad if I hadn't smelled it. I managed not to get sick the rest of the day, although I was in a lot of pain. I slept a lot.

Today I've been alright so far. I've drank a cup of Sunny D and eaten a piece of cinnamon bread. We're almost out - only one piece left! I'll have to go back to Great Harvest and get some more. A really likes it too, and it's something easy to snack on between meals.

A didn't go to work today because he said he feels sick. He's still in bed. I hope he's ok. I also hope that I don't catch whatever he has, because being pregnant is about all I can handle.

My boobs itch so bad I can't stand it. They have finally gotten to the point where they only hurt when I am laying down to sleep, but now they itch like crazy! They're all red and gross looking too, because the blood vessels on boobs break a lot easier than on other parts of your body. TMI? Sorry.

Don't get me wrong, those few people who read my blog. I am very blessed to be pregnant and am excited about being a mommy. I just can't seem to make myself be one of those people who enjoys everyday and is happy about morning sickness because that means the baby is still there. I'm tired, I've had a headache for almost a week now, and I'm starting to think I may never eat like normal again. But I am pregnant and have a little boy or girl growing inside me. I just keep chanting "it's worth it, it's worth it".

A huge shout out to my mother-in-law who despite the summer season, made me a pumpkin pie that I had been craving so badly. Yum!