I said to myself that I needed to update my blog. But as I sit here, I don't know what all to write about! Prepare for a ramble...
Work is basically unpleasant because of a.) where I work and b.) I'm so pregnant. It hurts whenever I move, I'm tired all the time, and singing with the kids makes me out of breath.
I was really considering after our false alarm Saturday and continuing to feel like crap that I might not stay working until the due date. But apparently it turns out that I do not qualify for short term disability. Insurance gave me the run-around and said that in order to have that you have to have life insurance. And I don't. So I'm trying to tough it out.
Some of the kids at school are just now realizing that I am pregnant. Now I say all the time that these kids don't listen and don't pay attention. Now do people believe me? I haven't just been eating too many burritos! And I know beyond just my physical appearance that I've mentioned it to every class at school.
I keep going back and forth between really wanting Daven to get here NOW and being afraid of not being pregnant anymore. That transition between inside baby and outside baby is scary! I know I can take care of him while he's inside, but what's it going to be like once I can't feel him kick anymore? I'm sure that once he's here I won't feel like anymore. A and I both really want to meet him!
In the past week we have been finding small pee spots on the carpet in our office. For the longest time we couldn't figure out who was doing it. The spots seemed too small to come from the dog, and we just kind of assumed that Coheed was doing it because his box wasn't clean enough. But then we cleaned the cat box and there still continued to be spots randomly throughout the day.
Turns out that Oreo is the culprit. She squatted right in front of A the other night. Last night, she did it in front of me. Here's the thing. We've been taking her out the same amount, maybe even more. We have been paying the same amount of attention to her too. We think that this is her way of acting out about Daven getting ready to come. She only piddles a very small amount, and she'll do it sometimes immediately after being taken outside. Also, she doesn't do it during the day when we're not here, or when someone else, like A's dad is here. So I don't think that it's a control problem. Plus, she only ever does it in the office, nowhere else.
It's very irritating. She gets up in the middle of the night and makes all kinds of spots. Thankfully Resolve cleans it. But we don't know what to do to get her to stop. A was home half a day today while the contractor guy was mudding the drywall and Oreo didn't do anything. So maybe it's just in response to me. I do know that any time A hugs me for too long or rubs/kisses my belly, Oreo freaks her shit. ::sigh:: I love you, puppy.
Tomorrow Daven will officially be full term! Hooray!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
False alarm
After A got up and I was still feeling really bad, he said that he really wanted me to go to the hospital just in case. So in we went. They registered us pretty quickly and sent me up to L&D. I got in a gown and they hooked me up to the monitors. The nurse did an internal check - no dilation.
The nurse said she would be back in an hour to see. Then she left. Did she give me any tissues to wipe up the ungodly amount of lube she used on me? No. And there wasn't a tissue in sight. I felt violated and goopy.
So I laid there for an hour. Still was in lots of pain. Daven started kicking the monitor and that made loud noises.
After what seemed like forever, the nurse came back in with my release papers.
"Come back in when you're really in labor".
"So I wasn't having contractions?"
"No."
"Well then what do you call it?"
"Being pregnant."
"I am in considerable pain though."
"You can take Tylenol for that."
"Tylenol doesn't help at all."
"You're pregnant. Can't take other stuff. Deal with it."
I think I need to give Wayne Brady a call so he can come choke a bitch.
I mean, I know she's just doing her job and she deals with this kind of situation all of the time, but she knew that this is my first and you would think I could have gotten a little sympathy. I guess not.
So I'm back home now. Still feeling pretty cruddy. A just left to go get us some lunch. I sure hope this pain goes away soon!
The nurse said she would be back in an hour to see. Then she left. Did she give me any tissues to wipe up the ungodly amount of lube she used on me? No. And there wasn't a tissue in sight. I felt violated and goopy.
So I laid there for an hour. Still was in lots of pain. Daven started kicking the monitor and that made loud noises.
After what seemed like forever, the nurse came back in with my release papers.
"Come back in when you're really in labor".
"So I wasn't having contractions?"
"No."
"Well then what do you call it?"
"Being pregnant."
"I am in considerable pain though."
"You can take Tylenol for that."
"Tylenol doesn't help at all."
"You're pregnant. Can't take other stuff. Deal with it."
I think I need to give Wayne Brady a call so he can come choke a bitch.
I mean, I know she's just doing her job and she deals with this kind of situation all of the time, but she knew that this is my first and you would think I could have gotten a little sympathy. I guess not.
So I'm back home now. Still feeling pretty cruddy. A just left to go get us some lunch. I sure hope this pain goes away soon!
6 and a half minutes
That's how far apart my contractions are right now. I've been in pain ever since I woke up this morning.
**WARNING** Some of this might be tmi...
Last night before bed A and I had sex. (and it was nice)
I had trouble staying to sleep, but that's nothing new. Every time I woke up to go the bathroom, it hurt really bad like I wasn't going to be able to hold it, even though I had just gone an hour ago. But even though there wasn't much pee to speak of most of the time, that feeling went away after I went, and I was able to fall back to sleep.
This morning I woke up to a contraction, and when I got up to go to the bathroom, I noticed that there was a bit of dried blood in my underwear. That was definitely scary. Although I tried not to panic, because we did have sex last night, and I've heard that once you start to dilate, you can bleed.
So I'm sitting in the living room now with the tv on, trying to time these contractions with this app on my iPhone. A is still asleep. I hope he won't be mad that I haven't woken him up, but I figured that if there's any chance that today might be the day, he's going to need all the sleep he can get.
This is so surreal. I feel like it shouldn't be happening. And maybe it isn't - who knows. All I know is that I'm not ready for this. We haven't preregistered. The hospital bag isn't packed. None of Daven's clothes have been washed.
What I know is that it feels like my lower back might break and that my ute wants to fall out. Like really bad period pains, but lower. Daven is still squirming around in there though, so I think he's ok. He's probably hungry!
Hold me - I'm scared!
**WARNING** Some of this might be tmi...
Last night before bed A and I had sex. (and it was nice)
I had trouble staying to sleep, but that's nothing new. Every time I woke up to go the bathroom, it hurt really bad like I wasn't going to be able to hold it, even though I had just gone an hour ago. But even though there wasn't much pee to speak of most of the time, that feeling went away after I went, and I was able to fall back to sleep.
This morning I woke up to a contraction, and when I got up to go to the bathroom, I noticed that there was a bit of dried blood in my underwear. That was definitely scary. Although I tried not to panic, because we did have sex last night, and I've heard that once you start to dilate, you can bleed.
So I'm sitting in the living room now with the tv on, trying to time these contractions with this app on my iPhone. A is still asleep. I hope he won't be mad that I haven't woken him up, but I figured that if there's any chance that today might be the day, he's going to need all the sleep he can get.
This is so surreal. I feel like it shouldn't be happening. And maybe it isn't - who knows. All I know is that I'm not ready for this. We haven't preregistered. The hospital bag isn't packed. None of Daven's clothes have been washed.
What I know is that it feels like my lower back might break and that my ute wants to fall out. Like really bad period pains, but lower. Daven is still squirming around in there though, so I think he's ok. He's probably hungry!
Hold me - I'm scared!
Friday, January 8, 2010
Snow days!
I have quite enjoyed these past two days because I haven't had to go to work! The snow that they predicted actually came in for once! I know that I was only back at work for 3 days, but damn it felt like a long time and I was ready for a break. Especially considering that I didn't even leave work on Wed. until 6:30. Yeah, that's almost a full 12 hours at school. Clearly I do not get paid enough!
I took these pictures from our upstairs (almost nursery!) This is our backyard.
Hopefully my aunt and cousin made it safely back to Hawaii. I hope their flight this morning didn't get delayed. I did get to spend some time with them throughout these past 2 weeks, and I even brought them over to see the house, even though it's currently a disaster!
Yesterday I had my appointment. It's every week from here on out. I gained 1 pound, which means that so far I've gained a total of 3. Still not sure exactly how many I've lost before this though. Heartbeat is still sounding good. It seems like everything is on track. I don't think my doctor starts internal exams as early as others do. So I couldn't tell you if anything is progressing down there yet.
What I can tell you is that I have been having Braxton Hicks contractions and they SUCK. While they are still pretty inconsistent, they hurt like hell when they do happen. Earlier today when A and I were out running errands, I had 4 in the span of about an hour. It's actually quite embarrassing to have to stop where ever I am and hold my stomach.
Daven should be 6 pounds by now! As big as a crenshaw melon. Is this the first time you've heard of this melon too, or is it just me?
Since I completely forgot to take my pic yesterday, here I am today, a day late. But you get a bonus - I have towel head!
There is now less than a week until Daven is considered full term. This means that really he could come out at any time. Ahhh! I guess that means that I really should pack a bag. And go get some nursing bras. I'm starting to really get nervous. When I first got pregnant, I just decided that I wasn't going to think about the whole labor and delivery process. It's kind of gotten to the point where I can't ignore it anymore!
The nursery is still being worked on. Now the drywall is up, although it still has to be mudded and sanded and all that. Then we have to paint. A and I picked out some color swatches today. After that, the carpet goes in. We bought that today, and it is scheduled to be installed Jan 20. We still have to purchase and install a toilet and sink for the half bath. I think that after all that is done, then it's just moving all the furniture and crap upstairs, which is easier said than done. Phew!
But enough worrying about things I can't control. We're having Maido for dinner!
I took these pictures from our upstairs (almost nursery!) This is our backyard.
Hopefully my aunt and cousin made it safely back to Hawaii. I hope their flight this morning didn't get delayed. I did get to spend some time with them throughout these past 2 weeks, and I even brought them over to see the house, even though it's currently a disaster!
Yesterday I had my appointment. It's every week from here on out. I gained 1 pound, which means that so far I've gained a total of 3. Still not sure exactly how many I've lost before this though. Heartbeat is still sounding good. It seems like everything is on track. I don't think my doctor starts internal exams as early as others do. So I couldn't tell you if anything is progressing down there yet.
What I can tell you is that I have been having Braxton Hicks contractions and they SUCK. While they are still pretty inconsistent, they hurt like hell when they do happen. Earlier today when A and I were out running errands, I had 4 in the span of about an hour. It's actually quite embarrassing to have to stop where ever I am and hold my stomach.
Daven should be 6 pounds by now! As big as a crenshaw melon. Is this the first time you've heard of this melon too, or is it just me?
Since I completely forgot to take my pic yesterday, here I am today, a day late. But you get a bonus - I have towel head!
There is now less than a week until Daven is considered full term. This means that really he could come out at any time. Ahhh! I guess that means that I really should pack a bag. And go get some nursing bras. I'm starting to really get nervous. When I first got pregnant, I just decided that I wasn't going to think about the whole labor and delivery process. It's kind of gotten to the point where I can't ignore it anymore!
The nursery is still being worked on. Now the drywall is up, although it still has to be mudded and sanded and all that. Then we have to paint. A and I picked out some color swatches today. After that, the carpet goes in. We bought that today, and it is scheduled to be installed Jan 20. We still have to purchase and install a toilet and sink for the half bath. I think that after all that is done, then it's just moving all the furniture and crap upstairs, which is easier said than done. Phew!
But enough worrying about things I can't control. We're having Maido for dinner!
Monday, January 4, 2010
Hallelujah, my shower went well! After all that anxiety, it ended up being a lot of fun. I never expected to get so much stuff for Daven either. I seriously don't have enough room to put all the stuff!
A lot of A's family was there. Also, mom's friend, my aunt and cousin and grandpa's wife came.
A big shout out to Shelbs and her mommy for coming - I love you, Shelby and am so glad to still have you as my friend. I promise to be there for you for all of your big moments too.
We found out that my belly is 14 pieces of toilet paper wide. Also, baby food smells awful! Ok, so I didn't actually have to smell any of the jars like everyone else, but their faces spoke loud and clear!
There is no way that I can remember off the top of my head what all we got, but here's a few things:
Crib and mattress
Swing
Bouncer
Organizers
Bedding
Diaper bags
Lots of cute clothes and burpie cloths
I've got to go out and get some thank you notes and get those going. I definitely want to have those out in the mail before Daven gets here! Although I'm having a hard time finding a moment for myself since work started back to school today. I didn't get home until 5 today. I took the dog out, A and I got dinner, I took a shower, and then I worked on school shit until 10. This is ridiculous!
I am really trying not to stress about work, but it's hard not to, thinking about all the things that need to get done before I leave. And what if Daven comes early? But what if he comes late? I just need to be able to plan better.
Ok, bladder, you really need to cool it. I'm seriously tired of all the peeing that has been happening. It's not fun. I'm back to the point where I can just sit there in the bathroom like I'm taking a #2, reading a book. I shouldn't have to pee that much! Argh!
There was more that I wanted to talk about, but it's late and I'm cold and I haven't had a chance to cuddle with A yet today. Night.
A lot of A's family was there. Also, mom's friend, my aunt and cousin and grandpa's wife came.
A big shout out to Shelbs and her mommy for coming - I love you, Shelby and am so glad to still have you as my friend. I promise to be there for you for all of your big moments too.
We found out that my belly is 14 pieces of toilet paper wide. Also, baby food smells awful! Ok, so I didn't actually have to smell any of the jars like everyone else, but their faces spoke loud and clear!
There is no way that I can remember off the top of my head what all we got, but here's a few things:
Crib and mattress
Swing
Bouncer
Organizers
Bedding
Diaper bags
Lots of cute clothes and burpie cloths
I've got to go out and get some thank you notes and get those going. I definitely want to have those out in the mail before Daven gets here! Although I'm having a hard time finding a moment for myself since work started back to school today. I didn't get home until 5 today. I took the dog out, A and I got dinner, I took a shower, and then I worked on school shit until 10. This is ridiculous!
I am really trying not to stress about work, but it's hard not to, thinking about all the things that need to get done before I leave. And what if Daven comes early? But what if he comes late? I just need to be able to plan better.
Ok, bladder, you really need to cool it. I'm seriously tired of all the peeing that has been happening. It's not fun. I'm back to the point where I can just sit there in the bathroom like I'm taking a #2, reading a book. I shouldn't have to pee that much! Argh!
There was more that I wanted to talk about, but it's late and I'm cold and I haven't had a chance to cuddle with A yet today. Night.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Having a shower makes me feel guilty
So my shower is this afternoon. After all the waiting and worrying and thinking that I wouldn't have a shower, I am indeed having one. So why do I feel so unsettled about it?
I feel guilty, like I don't deserve to have a shower. Like A and I should be able to get all of these things ourselves. I don't like having to rely on other people. As much as I try, I just seem to find myself in a bad mood this morning.
Out of all my friends that I invited, one has rsvp'ed. And even then I feel bad because she is so busy and I know that it's not easy for her to come across the river to spend time with me on the weekend.
I'm a bit nervous about how my mom and my aunt from Hawaii are going to act being around one another. They have both made it very clear to me that one does not like the other, but since my aunt and cousin are in town for once, I really wanted them to be there. My mom was not happy when I told her that they would be there.
Funny thing is, it's her side of the family that is flaking out. My aunt, cousin, and uncle's long-time gf all from her side of the family aren't coming because there's a basketball game on this afternoon. My aunt lied about why she couldn't come to my mom, and then mom found out from my grandpa that they were all getting together this afternoon at her house to watch the big game. Nice. I hate to say that I hold a grudge, but the next time I'm asked to be a supportive member of the family I'm going to remember this.
And then I feel guilty about being mad. Showers kind of suck for everyone except the person opening the gifts. Why should anyone want to come? Bah.
Ok, I should stop bitching and get ready for my day. Hopefully I can get out of this funk before this afternoon!
I feel guilty, like I don't deserve to have a shower. Like A and I should be able to get all of these things ourselves. I don't like having to rely on other people. As much as I try, I just seem to find myself in a bad mood this morning.
Out of all my friends that I invited, one has rsvp'ed. And even then I feel bad because she is so busy and I know that it's not easy for her to come across the river to spend time with me on the weekend.
I'm a bit nervous about how my mom and my aunt from Hawaii are going to act being around one another. They have both made it very clear to me that one does not like the other, but since my aunt and cousin are in town for once, I really wanted them to be there. My mom was not happy when I told her that they would be there.
Funny thing is, it's her side of the family that is flaking out. My aunt, cousin, and uncle's long-time gf all from her side of the family aren't coming because there's a basketball game on this afternoon. My aunt lied about why she couldn't come to my mom, and then mom found out from my grandpa that they were all getting together this afternoon at her house to watch the big game. Nice. I hate to say that I hold a grudge, but the next time I'm asked to be a supportive member of the family I'm going to remember this.
And then I feel guilty about being mad. Showers kind of suck for everyone except the person opening the gifts. Why should anyone want to come? Bah.
Ok, I should stop bitching and get ready for my day. Hopefully I can get out of this funk before this afternoon!
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Years flying kitty
Earlier today my cat scared the shit out of me. Not the normal "I'm meowing and you don't know what's wrong with me" or "No one knows why I keep throwing up". No, this was far worse of a scare.
Our upstairs is still being renovated in hopes that we can have our bedroom and the nursery up there. Yes, time is running out. I know. But the shit's being worked on.
So A was in the bathroom getting out of the shower and I was in the living room watching an episode of Law and Order that of course, I had already seen. I heard a really big BOOM, followed by a very loud MEOW. I ran into the dining room to find a ceiling tile on the floor and my cat, Coheed hanging from said ceiling. WTF?! There were wires hanging everywhere and while I was trying to reach him, he was swinging back and forth, getting all tangled. I finally got his back legs and then he fell onto a tupperware box full of Halloween stuff that was sitting in the dining room. Luckily he landed on his feet and after I held him for a few minutes and checked him out, he appears to be ok. It took me forever to breathe normal again and for my heart to stop beating overtime.
So, it seems that he was upstairs, snuck through one of those holes, jumped on the ceiling tile, and then held on for dear life when that tile fell. Poor kitty. I hope he's learned his lesson! At least once the drywall gets put up, there won't be any more holes. What is Coheed doing now, you might ask?
Sleeping in his favorite chair. Thank goodness he's ok! Happy New Year!
Yesterday marked a very important moment in my pregnancy - 35/35. This means that yesterday I was 35 weeks pregnant with 35 days left to go. Holy shit! We are getting so close!
How big is Daven? He should be weighing over 5 pounds now - a honeydew melon!
Yesterday, we were supposed to go out to A's friend's house to celebrate New Year's Eve, but I wasn't feeling well enough. Yesterday was the first day that I really experienced Braxton Hicks contractions. It hurt! Apparently these are practice contractions. If so, then I'll be asking for an epidural at the hospital for sure!
I have also not been sleeping worth crap. I toss and turn all night, get up just about every hour to pee, and wake up in the morning feeling as if I hadn't slept at all. I've been having to keep the tv on all night as well, because I've been having bad dreams. Night before last I dreamed that some man came into my house and killed all of my furbabies. It felt so real - I couldn't even nap yesterday because it was still in my head. I'm going to be in trouble come Monday when I have to go back to work. I fear that this last month of working before Daven gets here will not be pleasant or easy.
My shower is tomorrow! The sucky thing is that the weather is supposed to turn bad tomorrow. I hope some people show up!
Ugh, my Taco Bell lunch isn't exactlty agreeing with me. Time to lay down.
Our upstairs is still being renovated in hopes that we can have our bedroom and the nursery up there. Yes, time is running out. I know. But the shit's being worked on.
So A was in the bathroom getting out of the shower and I was in the living room watching an episode of Law and Order that of course, I had already seen. I heard a really big BOOM, followed by a very loud MEOW. I ran into the dining room to find a ceiling tile on the floor and my cat, Coheed hanging from said ceiling. WTF?! There were wires hanging everywhere and while I was trying to reach him, he was swinging back and forth, getting all tangled. I finally got his back legs and then he fell onto a tupperware box full of Halloween stuff that was sitting in the dining room. Luckily he landed on his feet and after I held him for a few minutes and checked him out, he appears to be ok. It took me forever to breathe normal again and for my heart to stop beating overtime.
So, it seems that he was upstairs, snuck through one of those holes, jumped on the ceiling tile, and then held on for dear life when that tile fell. Poor kitty. I hope he's learned his lesson! At least once the drywall gets put up, there won't be any more holes. What is Coheed doing now, you might ask?
Sleeping in his favorite chair. Thank goodness he's ok! Happy New Year!
Yesterday marked a very important moment in my pregnancy - 35/35. This means that yesterday I was 35 weeks pregnant with 35 days left to go. Holy shit! We are getting so close!
How big is Daven? He should be weighing over 5 pounds now - a honeydew melon!
Yesterday, we were supposed to go out to A's friend's house to celebrate New Year's Eve, but I wasn't feeling well enough. Yesterday was the first day that I really experienced Braxton Hicks contractions. It hurt! Apparently these are practice contractions. If so, then I'll be asking for an epidural at the hospital for sure!
I have also not been sleeping worth crap. I toss and turn all night, get up just about every hour to pee, and wake up in the morning feeling as if I hadn't slept at all. I've been having to keep the tv on all night as well, because I've been having bad dreams. Night before last I dreamed that some man came into my house and killed all of my furbabies. It felt so real - I couldn't even nap yesterday because it was still in my head. I'm going to be in trouble come Monday when I have to go back to work. I fear that this last month of working before Daven gets here will not be pleasant or easy.
My shower is tomorrow! The sucky thing is that the weather is supposed to turn bad tomorrow. I hope some people show up!
Ugh, my Taco Bell lunch isn't exactlty agreeing with me. Time to lay down.
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