Mostly more bitching

I am so frustrated with how the week is going. My eczema has become overwhelming. I literally could not function yesterday because it's so bad around my eyes. It itches worse than the chicken pox and my eyes were so swollen yesterday I couldn't see clearly. Now today the swelling has gone down some, even though the itch is still just as bad. But now the rash has decided to take over my whole face. My cheekbones, my cheeks, my lips and the area right around them itch! Add to this my itchy neck rash that I've already had for a week, and I am scratching like crazy! It's not a pleasant experience. My students look at me with a funny face, trying to figure out what's wrong with me and if they can catch it. I kind of wish they could so that I would have an excuse to stay home!

Have I mentioned yet that I have dry skin on my nipples? Well I do! And it's not attractive or comfortable!

H1N1 - the swine flu - it's here at school. We got our first confirmed case yesterday. And even though they're not supposed to tell us who it is that has it, it's one of my band students that I see three times a week. The last time I had him was Friday. And now he's out with H1N1. I called the doctor just to be safe, and they said, "Well, if you start to exhibit symptoms, just let us know and we'll call you a prescription for Tamaflu". I'm sure that they are tired of hearing pregnant woman worrying about it, but I thought that I would get a bit more sympathy than that!

I am fuming mad right now. The music director at our school who is in charge of all the church music gives lessons in my classroom after school on Wednesdays. She teaches two brothers right in a row. Sometimes I'm in here getting things done, some times I go home. But no matter the case, she's always in here right at 3 to start the lesson. I'm sitting here, playing on the internet a bit and deciding to write in my blog before heading out, and I realize that it's 3:15 and she's still nowhere to be found. I go up to the office and have them buzz her. She walks right past the office and down the hall, without stopping in to say anything.

I run (waddle) after her, and ask her if she's planning on having a lesson with her student today. She nonchalantly tells me, "Oh, I'm giving his brother a lesson in the church right now and I told him that he could sit in your room and practice. That's ok, isn't it?" No it's not fucking ok. I am not responsible for babysitting this kid! I no longer have to be here. My required time for the day is up. And here I sit, lying and saying it's ok because I don't want to cause a scene. And I like this woman, I really do. She plays the piano for me in our Christmas shows so that we don't have to perform to canned music. I really don't want to start shit with her. But I don't feel good and was planning on getting out of here as soon as I could today. She changed her routine, put responsibility on me, and did not let me know ahead of time. This definitely does not help my eczema epidemic!


Daven must not like when I get upset, because he is kicking like crazy now! I'm sorry, Daven. Mommy will try to calm down.

If you hadn't noticed, A and I decided on a spelling. I had originally wanted -in, he wanted -en. We couldn't really come to a compromise. Then I remembered where I got the name from in the first place - a band called Davenport Cabinet. So I backed down, changed my mind, and decided on Daven. It feels better now that we have a definite name and spelling. I love you, baby boy. And I love you, A.

This concerns me

Today my heart has been acting funny. I'll be sitting or standing, and out of nowhere, my heart will start to beat really fast. And really hard too - I can feel it in my throat and when I put my hand on my chest. It lasts for a few seconds and then goes away. It started at about 10 this morning.

Throughout the day, it seems that it is happening more frequently. Now it's doing it about every 10 minutes. I keep drinking water, hoping that getting hydrated will somehow help. I did have caffeine, but it was at 7:30 this morning, and I (shamefully) have caffeine just about every day. So why is my heart doing this? Do I need to call the doctor? I know that being pregnant makes your body do and feel all kinds of strange, so I don't know if this is one of those weird but normal things, or if I should be scared.

Believe it or not, my eczema is worse now than it was this morning. I wish there was something that could be done about it. I'm dying here! The itch is unbearable, and now my actual eyes are burning.

Thank goodness it's the end of the school day and I can go home. I really could use a margarita!

Another Monday

At least it's not raining! ::knocks on wood and crosses fingers:: And it feels like fall today. I'm actually a little chilly in my classroom right now with my windows open. I'm sure I'll still have to turn the ac on once my students get in here though. They have a lot of hot air and tend to heat up (and stink up) the room.

I need to save up some money because the fall weather does mean that my skirt wearing time is now limited. I've gone for quite a while with only the bare minimum in maternity clothes. Still just one skirt, a handful of shirts, and a few pairs of undies. But now I'm going to need to invest in a few pairs of work pants, more shirts and long sleeves, sweaters, and a winter coat. Oh, and this isn't maternity related, but I need a new pair of leather gloves for the winter. Something happened to mine last year and I can only find one of them. This makes me sad because my mom bought me those gloves and I loved them! ::sniffle:: So I need to gear up for winter.

So, why do I have a case of the Mondays today? Well, even though I slept quite a bit, I had all these strange, vivid dreams that kept waking me up. I woke up feeling like I'd hardly slept at all. As much as I try, I can't eliminate my stress. I've talked about how I've been stressing over bedding - well my dreams were about me trying to buy the bedding of all things. I've been stressing about it so much during the day that now I'm stressing about it in my sleep too!

Then I woke up, and things were weird because A was already gone. He's golfing for work today and had to leave early. I hope you do well today, A!

I couldn't see very well so I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. Yep, just as I suspected. My eczema on my eyelids has gotten worse. This always seems to happen. It always has to get to the point where I look like a cartoon villain and am completely miserable before it will get any better. My eyelids are all red, swollen and puffy. I can't open my eyes all the way. My vision right now is blurry. And my eyes still itch like hell, despite the fact that they also hurt like hell. So I've got the Vaseline gooped on and am trying my damndest not to scratch or rub. I'm fighting a losing battle with myself. It's unbearable. You may think I'm being overly dramatic, but have you had to deal with this condition? I didn't think so.

This is me, but without the celebration:

Happy Monday, y'all.

Saturdays ramblings

I love turkey bacon sandwiches. A made me one for lunch. It was delicious. I could have eaten 5 of those sandwiches!

There is nothing on tv on the weekends anymore. Except for damned football. Screw football. Why is everyone so obsessed? I don't know what I would do if A loved it. I would let him watch it, but I would be so bored! The game to me is just so boring and friggin pointless. I don't think I will ever like it.

It's quarter to 3 in the afternoon and I am still sitting here in my pjs. My ta tas are practically hanging out of my cami, but I don't care enough to take a shower and get dressed. Plus, I don't want to change out of my panda pj pants!

I am so sleepy. My kitty Mia woke me up this morning by licking my nose. I couldn't get back to sleep so I got up. Then after breakfast I fell back to sleep. Not sure how long I slept for. Now I'm ready for another nap. I kid you not. I can barely keep my eyes open. But I'm trying to stay awake because this is what I did last weekend. I literally slept all day last Saturday and I know that A must have been bored out of his mine. But oh how I want to sleep!

My feet are cold. I do not like cold feet.

I really want sushi tonight for dinner. But something tells me that A's sister is going to back out of our plans to go out to eat.

::yawns::

21 week belly

I'm a post whore today. I'll admit it. But even if I had all of these thoughts organized at one time, it would have been too long for a single post anyway. Hopefully I'll stop at 3 posts for the day and give it a rest!

You can't take me anywhere!

Being pregnant has made me lose my filter. I have been lucky enough so far to not go crazy on any of my students yet, and for this I am thankful. However, the patrons and employees of Kroger have not been so lucky.

Last night after dinner, A and I stopped at Kroger to get some snacks. I had a hankering for some double chocolate chip muffins, and he wanted something from the ice cream section. Hey, he's the baby daddy. He can have cravings too! As usual, we run into people we know and are stopped talking way longer than we were actually shopping.

We finally got around to getting our stuff, which somehow ended up including a new set of Tupperware (my fault) and all in all, it maybe took us about 3 minutes to get our shopping done.

We headed up to the front of the store to check out, and I notice that the lines are quite long. Since we only had a couple items, we made our way to the u-scan. Oddly, even though it was still early in the evening, half of the lanes were closed. Weird. They were open when we came in.

One of our friends that was working that night happened to be right in front of us in line, since she was on break and was buying a frozen dinner. I asked her why half the u-scan was closed. She said she had no idea. She she hollered at the guy working the u-scan, "Hey, why are those lanes closed?"

"Because I don't want to watch both u-scans."

Then, without a thought in my head, I shouted out, "Pussy!"

Lots of snickering occurred.

Quite a few glares of pure disgust.

Luckily, none of my students from school were around.

I really have no idea what came over me or where my filter went. I honestly felt bad afterwards. But there was no taking that one back!

21 weeks, and stressing over bedding

Carrot baby!

Little Dav should be as long as a carrot this week. Keep growing, baby! I'm not sure how I feel about the comparisons for the past weeks. I see these pictures and imagine my baby as a stick baby. I can't help it. I'm a visual learner, and look how skinny this carrot is!

I would like to think that I'm starting to get better. I still feel like hurling in the morning, but if I drink a soft drink when I get to work, that normally makes it better. And I have eaten a full dinner the past two nights in a row! Add to this that I can feel Dav kick often and I'm feeling more optimistic than I have in a long time.

What I don't like is the restless leg shit that has come out of nowhere. I haven't read that this is a symptom of pregnancy, so why do I have it? It's the worst at night, when I'm watching tv on the couch with A.

Also, this eczema business needs to calm down. The fact that I have it on my eyelids and around my eyes is NOT cool. I've been trying not to scratch it, because if I do then my lids will swell and I'll look like Quasimodo (sp?). I've also got it on my cheeks, neck, arms, hands, and legs. And I'm pretty sure it's all attributed to stress. Stress about getting bedding for the crib.

Tiny Rockets 4 Piece Crib Bedding Set by Sumersault
$199.99 + shipping


Sumersault Tiny Rockets Crib Bedding
$199.99 + shipping

Keep in mind that the $200 for these sets only includes the sheet, bumper, dust ruffle and quilt. Everything else seen in the photo can be added on extra, for a LOT more money. A LOT.

So this pretty much breaks down to $50 a piece for the bedding. And I could go cheaper, by say, only buying the themed bumper and quilt, and pairing that with other, less expensive sheets. But no. That's not an option. You either have to buy the 4 piece set or none at all. It's such a farking scam. A and I are prepared to hand out serious cash for the crib, but there is no reason that baby bedding has to be so expensive.

Also, our theme isn't exactly a popular one, so there aren't that many options. I'm not sure why more people don't want to do an outer space / planets / rocket ship nursery for their baby boy though. I like the idea. I just wish there were more affordable options.

I've seen sheets with stars that we could buy just by itself. But the only stand alone bumpers I've found are solid colors. And we refuse to just do a pain, solid color set in the crib.

A mentioned asking his grandma to make the bedding. This would be wonderful. I've never seen her sew, but she's supposed to be good at it. And I'm sure she'd be willing to do this for us if we ask. I just hope that she's better with her sewing machine than she is with her organ (or her keyboard, or her guitar...)

Is it so wrong that I want to give my baby a fun nursery without spending a fortune? I'm sure we'll get it figured out, but for now I can't help but stress about it.